Life, as it is.....

I hope every week is like this week, when you have a public holiday on thursday!!! =) Makes the week much shorter and easier to get through. I havent been blogging much lately, simply because there isnt much to say. Most of my friends should have found a job by now, and those who were already in a job have changed jobs. I still think life is exciting for people of our age, cos we are young and the possibilities are there for you to grab and you just dont know what life is going to give you.

After this month, I'll be 24 and it will be half a year since I have started on this job. It's quite a big thing for me cos even though 1/2 year is short to achieve anything, I am putting pressure on myself to want to feel that I have progressed significantly. But it is always easier said than done cos daily tasks at work doesnt leave too much time to learn new stuff sometimes. Having stepped into the working world also means that it's time to be responsible and buy things like insurance and do some financial planning. I was brought up in a family that never does much financial planning ( unless you count in my mum's tricks to get $ from my dad and save it in the bank ). My dad never saves for rainy days, but one thing my parents do is invest in property, which I doubt I will be able to do within these 5 years anyway. So the thing is, I think I am kinda influenced, I cant really save $ also. This is really bad cos after a month, you'll just scratch your head and wonder where your money went. I remember telling this colleague of mind that I cant spend this much anymore, and he says " instead of thinking of how to spend less, why not think about how to get more? " Haha..so easy to say right?

Alrite, that's about it for updates for now. Am going to Bali this december =) And am really excited about it.. I just love beach holidays..kekekz.. And I am looking forward to this wednesday..

Cheers

Do you like changes or are you afraid of them? At my and my peers' age, I believe we are at a point in life where we have to make a lot of decisions for ourselves, which will in turn determine where you will be in future. On one hand, sometimes I dont see the urgency or seriousness of these choices for we are young, what's the big deal if we make one wrong decision or two? There's always tomorrow to try new things, to change your path and to start anew. It's all a contradiction isnt it. That's what I dont like about myself sometimes, I always see two sides of the coin, so clear that I cant decide which one I want sometimes. Someone once described me as a "neutral" person.

I just got my PR status here in S'pore, so now I dont have to bring a green card ( student pass) around but instead I finally have a IC. I had a Msian IC, but I never feel quite malaysian other than the fact that my ID says so. Some case of lost identity. But I'd like to think that makes me very "international" haha. I wish.

Back to some soul-searching, I wonder how my peers are doing at this stage of our lives. How are they doing, really?In 2007 so far, I feel I have changed a lot. Not something that the eye can see anyway. Changes that I feel myself, in terms of thinking. I realized I am less tolerant, I want things done my way now and I know now it's ok to follow your heart and not do what you dont want to. My colleague says cos it comes with earning power and independence. I dont know if these changes are good or bad, but hey, this is life man. I think I like changes. And there are many other changes that I will not elaborate here. Else readers will fall asleep man..

My friend just broke up with the bf of 1 year. Aiz. Am quite worried about her cos she actually took up smoking when she was and still is this demure girl that I know. It's sad how love can destroy people in a bad way. Let's just hope there wont be any permanent damage done here . Time heals all wounds doesnt it.


Realize my entry is very incoherent.haha..it's really penning down my thoughts..

Time to shower and leave da house.

Cheers

There's really nothing to update lately. Been working for nearly 3 months already..and my confirmation will soon be known. Well, in fact my "review" is this friday. Our company has this profiling thing and I am really curious about my profile man..guess I'll ask from my supervisor.

Anywayz, I really want to be a workaholic, not in a bad way, but to find passion in my job, to find direction, ambition, aspirations to do well, to excel. But right now, I am still finding it, and hopefully getting there. New boss is coming in and I do hope he/she can lead the team well and in turn inspire me and guide me.

I have been going to pubs lately and I do enjoy this kind of lifestyle despite how bad it is for my wallet and waistline ( alcohol is very very fattening). But well, even though I dont go clubs, but a few examples I've seen and been through really makes me feel jaded about men in general. tsk tsk. Married/attached men can come out for a night of fun. Well, guys can argue that girls these days are doing it too. Whatever man. Sometimes, I really think it's better not to know the truth. Oh well, not that I'm going to let these people affect me but still..it kind of makes you wonder if that's how the world is.

Argh..I hate procrastination. Someone save me!

Cheers